grrr

i think i just turn to this when im really p****d off!!!

going to america for the summer, had a house, lease signed, and two girls back out. in such a panic, so much stress. have final exams in two weeks, and now this to deal with too!!!

so if we dont find others we'll have to pay a stupid amount between us, and i am wondering if the names on the lease can be changed!!

grrr... think ill just stay in my safe house for the rest of my life!

Love.

Is this the driving force of us all?

I am definately a romantic, or definately was- but seem to have lost all the want for romance lately. I have been dating my boyfriend for 3 and a half years, i do love him to bits, but i sometimes wonder can i keep ocerlooking his flaws, but nit everyone is perfect!!!. he is not a romantic. Is romance a teenage thing, something like santa or the tooth fairy, that you find really doesn't exist? i have a feeling ill know soon...travelling stage of my life is near!!

im at the point in my life where it's all just beginning.

It Begins

Hi. So i have been a member of so so many on line blog things before, myspace, bebo, facebook. but here i want to stay anon. For some odd odd reason, i have decided to start an online diary, personal things i just feel like writing. I am a 20 year old female. in my final year of a B.A degree. pretty hectic year, also taking a subject as a night time course to help get the job i want. i am in a long term relationship, which scares me at times, but gives that sense of security too. i live at home at the moment, with parents who are on the verge of retirement, who i am not really close to.

I once went to a tarot card reader, he summed me up pretty well. On the outside people just see a friendly girl, but i have so so many emotions within. so i decided to write them all down, where no one knows who i am, and i wont be judged. I carry the past with me, i suppose we all do, it is how we learn, it annoys me how i dont let things go so easily, even though i pretend.

If anyone does read this, let me know what you think!